Hello, hello, hello. Its been a while since I have communicated with you out there in cyberspace, please accept my sincere apologies as I have fallen in love. Yes! It's true. Cupid has pierced it's arrow into my heart, and with that pierce comes all the excitement and anxiety that accompanies falling in love. The doubts. "Can I do this again." The flutter of my heart anticipating that first kiss, "Will it be good!" Yes! Finally the question everyone asks me when they see me for a session, "Will it last?"My answer to that or what I am discovering this time around, is the "lasting" is in the effort we put into love. Love must come first from yourself, toward that one love, one relationship with self and one's connection to creator (God). I believe when we love ourselves first, love for another one flows from this place like a fire which we stoke and tend, for them and for ourselves. One of the best things I did for myself this time is I took a five-year break from intimate relationships (for the first time in my life) and learned to love myself first, with all my flaws and vulnerabilities, before I started dating my current boyfriend. In fact I remember precisely one month before I met him I had just finished attending an advanced painting class (where I felt I made great headway with my skills and understanding) a quiet gentle understanding poured over me, "I love you Lorraine."
About one month later I went out on a first date and was at peace enough with myself beforehand to be able to recognize the kindness and understanding that radiated from an enlightened soul that I could partner with. Looking into the deep mirror of self that love brings, being willing to learn from what I see, enjoying the journey. On the back of a motorcycle in my case!
Yes!!!
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